Anyhow, Siddhartha is just such a complex story. It is about a young man who has followed the rules for a long time. While doing so has gained him success in his community - he is respected for both his skills and his attitude by his neighbors - he still feels empty. It turns out that what everyone around him said was "good" or indicative of success left him feeling empty. Consider that he was on his way to a position of prominence as a Brahmin, which is the highest class of people in traditional Hindu society. So, he was not only in the highest class of people, but he was considered to be amongst the most respected of Brahmins in his city. Why wasn't this enough for him? Shouldn't he have been happy?
Here is a question for you: Should happiness be sought? Should we wake up every day trying to be happy, or is it better to try to live well and let happiness come to us as a result? I have come to believe that happiness should not be our main goal. Excellence should be our main goal, and happiness often comes to us as a result of our pursuit of excellence. Siddhartha was one of many sources that taught me this lesson.
Human beings, much like all animals, are largely reliant upon instincts and upon habits. Because of our minds, we have a greater range of habits than other animals. Our range of habits go all the way from the destructive (drug and alcohol addictions) to the wasteful (aimlessly watching television or eating too much junk food) to the productive (taking notes, studying, exercising) and finally to the exemplary (yes, excellence can become a habit).
We often become who we are because of what we consistently do.
One can see the impacts of living excellently by looking at the people around them. True, some variables are out of our control: how much money our parents have, whether or not we contract a communicable virus, the attitudes of people around us, what we are taught as children, the weather, etc. People who live excellently, however, often reveal this to us in many ways. We see that they have equanimity; they look healthy; they are energetic; they are curious and brave enough to seek answers to their questions; they are kind or at least avoid hurting others. In short, they exude the effects of living excellently or at least striving to do so.
Conversely, we can see the impacts of living with counterproductive habits: Ennui, constant fatigue (not including that which is caused by illnesses) bitterness, anger, cynicism, and general apathy. Now, if you talk to people who have the symptoms I just mentioned, they often have many excuses for why they are not responsible for these characteristics. It is true that it is unfair to blame some of them for their situations, especially if they are young and have not had the time to unlearn the habits taught to them by the adult world. Many times, however, their negative emotions are the results of practicing unproductive habits.
Siddhartha, the protagonist in the novel, feels many of these negative effects in the novel, but what makes him heroic is that he does not just stay with a life that is not working for him and accept his negative reactions. Instead, he continually seeks living excellently, and eventually happiness finds him as a result.
While you read the novel, ask yourself "What ways am I living excellently, and how are the impacts of these lifestyle choices obvious to the rest of the world?" At the same time, consider the habits that you have that you know might be working against your happiness, and then ask, "Will I be strong enough to change these habits and seek excellence in myself?"
Look at your eating habits, what you do with your "free" time, how you tend to treat people without really thinking about it, etc. Additionally, consider your self-talk, the ideas that you say to yourself in your head. When you are unsuccessful at something, do you think Man, why am I so stupid? or do you think, That's okay, I'll just seek other ways, because I will be successful! Yes, our inner thoughts are products of habits as well.
If these areas of your life are not producing the effects that you want, do you think you can be heroic enough to seek and practice excellence instead? Siddhartha was.